• Toyosi Osinowo

My Daily Struggle


This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.

~Joshua 1:8

As I have shared in the past, it is my desire to be open about my imperfections and even times when I have gotten things wrong. Why? Because we all have flaws and daily struggles and I believe it will encourage someone to be real as well. So today, I am going to be sharing my most recent struggle- spending time in God's Word and making it a priority above other minute things.

While I usually endeavor to make the time to just put everything on hold, tune out the world and just be in my favorite place to commune with the Father, I have been slacking in doing so lately. I kept convincing myself that being Omotoyosi comes with a lot to handle. "There are only 24 hours in a day and I have to play several roles to play within those 24 hours. I have to be a wife, mother, friend, sister, a mentor and of course, a business woman who also happen to be the face of Invisible Me." The sad truth about the statement above was that I forgot the most important role that I play- A CHILD! I am God's child and that role is vital to my total existence. My being successful in these other roles that I subconsciously made more important are solely dependent on the one that I often neglected. If I am being honest, even those other roles are not the reason why I was not able to make the time to be in His presence. I was simply distracted. As 'busy' as I was, I still found the time to watch my favorite TV shows (even though I could have recorded them on my DVR), and I sure found the time to get on......wait for it....... SOCIAL MEDIA! ("Face-Palm"). I am sure we can all relate to this struggle right here. We pick up our phones to 'browse' for a minute that ends up becoming hours and we end up losing track of time.

The beauty about God is that even in the midst of me getting carried away with the different roles that I used as excuses to justify my inability to seek Him and my quasi-bad habit of spending too much time on social media, He still found a way to speak to me and call it to my attention and I am so grateful for His gentle Spirit that always gives me the grace to yield and listen. As I took the time to process where I missed it, I realized that not only was I making excuses, but I was also being lazy and selfish. Yes, selfish. See, God began to reveal to me that my spending time with Him was not just for me. There are souls tied to my walk with Him. I remembered that my commitment to God was not limited to transparency but also my availability to HIM. My not being able to do so gets in the way of me being better so that others can be encouraged, blessed, and aspire to do the same. As scary and overwhelming as it was to face this reality, I knew that it was the truth and I had to own it.

Acknowledging that we are flawed beings, gives us the constant opportunity to be a better version of ourselves in God. The only thing that should be constant in our life is growth. As Frederick Douglass once said: "If there is no struggle, there is no progress."I truly believe that the life of a Christian is called a "walk" for a reason. As we walk through life, we will go through different chapters with different challenges, temptations, and even distractions. But thankfully, these struggles do not have to be the end of us. They do not have to stay in our lives. We can rise above them through the grace of God. We however, must do our part by first acknowledging whatever the struggle may be, be open to make the necessary change and even ask for help when we need it. Get practical and intentional about your desire to be better. It does not have to be a 1-hour a day shift. These things take time but you have to keep moving in the right direction. Whether it is just 10 or 30 minutes a day, the important thing is that you are making the conscious decision to grow. Even if you find yourself falling back to the old habit of not prioritizing, don't quit. Keep pursuing. I am encouraging myself to do the same as I share with you. Life can be challenging but we have the ability through the Holy Spirit to rise above all challenges and come out shining like Gold.

I love you all and I ask that you pray for me to continue to grow deeper in His word and presence as I pray for you too.

Toyosi.

"I will meditate on your precepts and fix my eyes on your ways." ~Psalm 119:15

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